I think about you a lot....

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I had a bad dream last night... a really bad one, someone tried to hurt me... so real... anyhow I woke up and first thing I could think of is writing an sms to a 'friend' of mine... ex bf actually... can't get myself away from thinking about him... seems like every little thing that happens to me, every little thing I feel...every little thing that cheers me up or puts me down I wanna share with him...
and I don't... it's just another stupid thing we people do... no wonder humans are so complicated...we can't even figure out ourselves and we wanna explore the world... and learn about it... I suck at this... I liked myself before... the quiet little thing, saving every little thought to her self...and than someone comes into your life and you learn to share your feelings, emotions, thoughts...
so many empty letters...and I can't seem to write down the right words.

"lately I can't seem to colour what we've lost...."

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lately it seems like every single thing I do or say is not good enough... sick of them letting their problems on me... tired of home... can't wait to go to my little piece of heaven on this planet... just gotta live through another week or so...
hope I last... I'll try to stay as quiet as I can... so it all passes me by...so I kinda vanish from their fears, problems, ...
and the weather isn't helping either...

we are perfect

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I'm gonna write this post for a friend of mine... I ended up laughing my ass off tonight just by reading what my friend and I were talking about... anyhow what I wanna say... yes, my dear friend WE ARE PERFECT, perfect individuals who have some kinda clue what we don't wanna do... ya, still figuring out what we would love to do...but I'm sure we're not that far away from that...and if we are even better, life is about traveling, discovering, learning along the way ...;)
so, don't worry, we are perfect just the way we are... no sane person could ever be like this! and have so much fun... and so many down points and so many funny stories to tell... and I'm so glad I know you! :)