:sigh

I must be stupid? or sth...but I don't seem to understand your behavior...is that the way to treat someone you used to know/love...perhaps I'm still too naive for this world... perhaps I still can't figure you out...or maybe I just don't get what's so hard in talking to me? aren't words sth you do best...aren't words sth we used to be good at...
bizarre ...these things happening to me and you...used to be friends...now?? you pretend you don't know me? or what?
gotta get myself to some other version of this life...coz I can't seem to understand this version of it.

there are little sparkles in my life... little cracks that let some interesting people to impress me...to trigger that wicked part of me that makes me think/talk even more... but than again these are just cracks... little things that happen and vanish as fast as they appear...

and I can't seem to move on from this place...I can't seem to figure out what it is I want to change... not so true- I know what I want to change, just don't know how to deal with it... life and it's consequences...
and this country of ours... but... it seems all has been put to a stop for the period of the football world cup... politicians and their business - put stuff to a complete brake down, mess everything up as much as you can and than allow the masses to organize football world cup so little people would focus on the game, rather than on the things politicians f****** up...