when your differences make no difference

Kim Casali the author of these pic. simple.true.love.

all jumbled up in this festival feeling.but still kinda split in two.on one side I'm an addict of decorating and making the house look great and I love to buy gifts for people, wrap them up specially for everyone...
on the other side I can't help but think how this world keeps getting from bad to worse.how I am once again alone.single that is.

anyhow.enough of that.I am in love.despite the obstacles.and distances.and wrong words.and secret life.and broken harts.and messed up emotions.I LOVE YOU.
You make my soul smile.I love you coz your way of thinking makes me just wanna hold you. :)
I realized today.it makes no difference.there is one love only.true love.no need to fight.things happen the way you want them to.now I know what I want.I got my 2 years ahead plan.and it feels good.damn good.

truth.faith.low odds.impossible things.great distances.imagination.communication.love.my love.

maybe it's still the season and all making me emotional but who cares I love it.it makes me smile.it makes me happy.it makes me love you even more.as usual I know this will sound too messed up but I think it's pretty simple.no fake words.no fake smiles.no fake feelings.just simple fact.

the other day I heard it on the news, they asked bunch of kids what they want for New Year and this one cute little girl said: "I want a special bell that rings in the ear of everyone who believes in Santa"
sweet ha? ;) as children can be.as we all could be if we just remembered we were all kids and the most important things aren't money and good car and a house and all that material things...
I love my family.my friends.they are my world.and that's what matters.that's what keeps you alive.we are nothing but a little piece in this gigantic universe.but our love is what makes us great.

she

she stops. to listen. to understand what he wants her to say. what he wants her to do. she stops. takes a breath. convince herself that she's strong. she doesn't need this. she doesn't have to listen to this.
strong as she might be. reasons against her are too strong. reasons that break her are something she can't handle. despite the truth. despite her honesty. despite the endless love.
words are what breaks her. silent messages that come crawling down her spine. secret look that she doesn't even see. whispering voices.
blank image of someone she used to know. no matter where she is. no matter what she thinks. no matter what might be.
decisions are not hers to make. decisions are up to him. and him only.
what if she was not alone. what if there was another creature. what if questions would fade and leave behind definitions.

what it all comes down to...

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it all comes down to this... big fancy car, a husband/wife, children... is this all you would wanna chase in life... I'm not complaining... just making a point... does it really comes down to this... so you can be one complete person... unless you got all this there's sth wrong with you...seriously wrong...
and it gets me thinking... how far away I am from all this... and what the hell is wrong with me... do I really want a great car(btw - I put on Mustang - my personal favorite - but I'm sure what counts for great car now days is some white (white??!!) audi, bmw or sth like that... ok, children I wouldn't mind... I love children -the only ones that tell you the truth as it is...they don't wrap it up in some shiny paper...as us 'grown ups' like to do... what are we so afraid of... the truth is not so scary... it should make you feel better...it should make your heart feel better and yet we hide it like it's some kinda... hmmmm don't even know what...
me and my big mouth... there are times when I should just shut the f... up...(specially after I had a big beer) but than I come to think why?... isn't it sad that you can be a friend to someone one day and the next morning you just feel you need to ignore that person... for some selfish reason you once did? for the sake of you? for the sake of that person? for...? what?...
...run into one of my ex the other day... it felt nice... calming... sweet... :)
what does it all come down to?... silence..absence... of love, truth, words, conversation, imagination, peace of mind, friends?