what have I been doing lately...

this is what comes up when you got too much free time on work...;) my version of postcards... :) I like them, simple, black and white...

mosaic

I've made this one for a great friend of mine... for her b-day... it was my first ever mosaic... made with pieces of broken cups... but I love how it turned out... I just loved making it!!! :)
anyhow...I've been away for awhile-not writing anything... kinda wrapped up in some strange emotions... I don't know where I stand... but things will work out fine... I hope... they have to...

tonight..

you know how sometimes you get that feeling ... like every time you do something... it's always wrong... and you get that from the people you love... from the people who mean something - not something- everything! ...to you... I hate that feeling that I'm doing things wrong and everyone else is doing it right... I thought people who love you should stick with you... no matter what... do you really need to be told you're wrong by the people that love you? ...well ok... yes... but this is not the case here... it's like no matter what... they always question my way... like I should be doing it differently...
enough of that... I had a perfect little plan tonight... I get home from work- arround 10pm... go wash my hair - because it needs water badly... and than make myself an egg sandwich... (and yes I am aware of how not healthy or whatever that is... but I don't care) ...
I'll just go enjoy it... ;)

tired

tired ....big time... I got up today at 6.30am went to work, than got home around one, eat something, went to my other job at 2pm... got home around 8pm... so ya... a bit tired (I better not use some other words... tired seems polite enough..;)) but hey... blame on me... I chose this... maybe it's just a sleepy day... or the fact I didn't go to sleep till midnight or something... which leads me to another conclusion... man, I admire those who get up at dawn... work all day... and take care of the whole family... and barley make it through a month with one paycheck... and they don't moan or say how tired they are...respect...
and than you see some kids who have no respect for money, for anything for that matter... and you see those politicians fooling around with our lives... our money... and still they can't get enough.... what a sad place this world is becoming... wait... I gotta correct myself... what a sad place this world IS...
and ya... it's not all so bad... you still got hope, love, people who make you laugh... and other stuff to make yourself forget about the problems... ;) why bother with something you can't change, right... I may be in my ''toxic'' mood today... (the hell I am)
today I got another job offer, but 3 jobs would be impossible... not with this kinda schedule of mine... anyhow... why I even started writing about this... I was thinking today, to quit it all, and to find some other job... but than again...
me and my complex mind... I can't get myself in some kinda straight line... always gotta look aside... for something better...
ya, that's about it... enough with self-pity! ;)

lack of time

sucks... I got myself so booked I can't see a way out... just for an example... Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays I have college in the morning, I get back home which is about an hour away with a car... I drive there and back everyday... than I go to work- to my first job... where I work for 2 days a week...till 8pm...it's not so bad... and the rest of the days I have my other job-graphics which takes my free mornings on Monday and Friday, the rest of my afternoons, and sometimes Saturdays... in all this I'm also working on my diploma... so in all I have a free Sunday...;)
and I look at all this and it makes me wonder what did I do to myself... but on the other hand this might get me some benefits later on...some more experience...some more knowledge...and no free time...hahaha...I just wonder how long will I keep this up... because knowing myself when I get fed with something or when I feel this isn't working for me I just quit what's not working and move on... but hey...I think I might last till the end of this year...maybe...;)we'll see... and for the first time in my life I have to actually write down what I'm gonna do every day... I had to get myself organized...and worst of all I have to make plans...I hate plans... I don't believe in plans... frustrating...wanna trade?