what it all comes down to...

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it all comes down to this... big fancy car, a husband/wife, children... is this all you would wanna chase in life... I'm not complaining... just making a point... does it really comes down to this... so you can be one complete person... unless you got all this there's sth wrong with you...seriously wrong...
and it gets me thinking... how far away I am from all this... and what the hell is wrong with me... do I really want a great car(btw - I put on Mustang - my personal favorite - but I'm sure what counts for great car now days is some white (white??!!) audi, bmw or sth like that... ok, children I wouldn't mind... I love children -the only ones that tell you the truth as it is...they don't wrap it up in some shiny paper...as us 'grown ups' like to do... what are we so afraid of... the truth is not so scary... it should make you feel better...it should make your heart feel better and yet we hide it like it's some kinda... hmmmm don't even know what...
me and my big mouth... there are times when I should just shut the f... up...(specially after I had a big beer) but than I come to think why?... isn't it sad that you can be a friend to someone one day and the next morning you just feel you need to ignore that person... for some selfish reason you once did? for the sake of you? for the sake of that person? for...? what?...
...run into one of my ex the other day... it felt nice... calming... sweet... :)
what does it all come down to?... silence..absence... of love, truth, words, conversation, imagination, peace of mind, friends?