enemy out of me...

it's easy...you stop talking to me and that's it...simple as that... I don't like, no wait, I absolutely do not appreciate people who are unable to communicate, who shut them selves up in their own private little world and don't love you enough to speak up... and for me that's as low as you can go... the ignorance, the silence... that's probably the worst thing you can do to me...
and the reason I'm writing all this ... I had a busy morning... got in contact with some completely impossible people, and than got home to be greeted by this ignorance from someone I love the most... just coz he doesn't want to admit he needs help... us humans are such a stupid creatures... and this is not the solitary case... this happend to me before from the person you least expect it... but that's life...all ups and downs... and as bad as I try to be optimistic, I seem to notice I'm failing at that more over the years...

night in

I am color... blind... in my dreams full of nothingness... what am I ...why am I... it's gotta be the 'weirdest' part of my life when I don't have a clue how or why or for what am I here for... it can't be you... you're not like this...this will pass...this is just a moment... this is just my life... the dream I have yet to be woken from... whatever... won't even make sense... won't even mean anything to you... why would it... how can you know... I don't even know...
beginning to understand my friend... this part of the year makes me depressive... and I wondered why... when there are so many nice things... it makes sense now...for now... for this second of sanity...