jealousy

probably should have posted another photo. but than a certain someone would think I'm too obvious and attacking him AGAIN. (like I'm constantly making up plans how to ruin? his life)
anyhow. got to this debate with my good friend today. how people don't understand (it's more don't want to) that women and man can be JUST friends. I fail to understand those who think that's impossible. it would make all my friendship with man - meaningless. if I don't use some other word to describe it.
I don't understand how someone can be jealous at someones friend.which brings out another point. trust. in my mind it's simple. you love someone. you trust someone. you let that someone have his/hers friends. or the exact opposite. no middle way. no gray area.
again. walking in circles. not touching the issue. having trouble accepting someones behavior. someones reactions? someones attitude towards me. yes.that would make me think - what's wrong with me? but it's not me with the issues. I have my facts straight. you and I can be friends. you and I could be friends. you and I are not friends coz of her.simple as that. now she must be doing something (will not go to details) bloody good or she would never get that privilege of telling you who you can and can't be friends with. now take this as you want. you know it's true. I know it's true. I think it sucks. you accept it. I don't tolerate jealousy ever. you do. another difference between you and me.true. we're not made for one another.
:P

thought came across my mind. (maybe) you're just using her as an excuse. chicken.

the beggining...will follow

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so as for the last post of this seven day long challenge we have to write what we'll be writing in the future... now for someone who loves to live one day at the time and not make plans for the future this is gonna be hard. I can just point out in what direction I want to go. maybe. I think. guess this one is more for those who plan.
I would definitely love it if more people would be following and reading my blog. to do so I gotta make it more interesting. fun. arty as me. well it's already as I am. but perhaps it would do no harm if sometimes I rethink what I will put out there for everyone else to read.
I would love to point out some of the interesting sites and things I keep bumping into all over again. could go on and on.... but honestly I want to make a mark. I want to make people see me. feel me. I want someone else to tell me what I'm doing wrong. I wanna live my life and tell you about it. teach you about smiling and laughing and giving and crying. (teach you- like you don't already know...but I'm sure you don't see things as I do...so perhaps I do know some good tips I can teach you)
I would try to write more about creative things. things that make your imagination go wild. and force you to get your ass moving and making something creative. coz you all can be very creative. imaginative. funny. happy.
I will try to make people see my point of view. (I always wondered how it must sound - my language (slovenian or serbian) to some Englishman, it would be so interesting to know)
optimism. reality. creativity. art. photography.

the one thing I always wanted to do is to put some more photos - to have my own personal portfolio -photo album online. what better way to see my point of view than that :)
so... started new job. stressful. but my director keeps reminding me I gotta do everything with a smile. and she's so right. things are much easier even if you just make that grin...

"smiling is infectious you can catch it like a cold"



this post was written as the last part of the ‘Seven Day Blogging Challenge’.

Eeny, meeny, miny, moe

it would be about time to pay some tribute to one of my favorite authors, Mika - Miroslav Antić. yes, I know what you'll say. who the hell is that. specially those of you who don't understand Serbian language. but still I love his words. his poems. and it would be nice if you made some effort and discover some of his text in English - despite the fact that they'll never sound so perfectly as the do in Serbian but still. we all have read and keep reading many other authors that aren't English. so I see no difference here.

"Miroslav "Mika" Antić was a Serbian poet, movie director, journalist and painter.

He wrote poems, articles, dramas, movie and TV scripts and documentaries. As film-maker, he was considered as a part of the "Black Wave" of the Yugoslav film. He is well known as a bohemian. A master of delicate and gentle sentiments." - according to Wikipedia

I have some books of his poems and as I have this crazy way. I don't read them from beginning to the end. I just pick up a book and open it on the page I feel I need that very moment. so far it worked as a charm. always hits my soul and my heart. telling me exactly what I want to hear. or what I don't want to but I should.
here are some parts of his songs. just to get a glimpse of it all. it would be perfect if you learned Serbian and read it as it's written. translations are never like originals. (whenever I can find I read books in the language that they were written in. so much better)

"These are your poems. Don’t ask how I found out what you’re thinking. Maybe sometimes I was: you. Maybe sometimes you were also me a bit. Maybe together we were the world "

"I’m dragging around two empty eyes staring into faces of passerby.Who should I ask, hungry and wet,why have we never met?"

" Those who know the signs of thoughts, rarely use spoken language."

"I’m thinking someone else’s thoughts Stealing my own time Dragging it Between clouds, dreams, Distance and snow…"




this post was written as part of the ‘Seven Day Blogging Challenge’.

Damir Urban & Stjepan Hauser - Everybody Hurts REM (Hope for Haiti)

intense day. crowded. full house you could say. got home few hours ago. gotta go to a farewell party coz our friend from Malaysia is going back home.

came across my favorite singer Damir Urban singing an REM song everybody hurts accompanied by this really cool cello player Stjepan Hauser. both from Croatia. talented. I personally have been a fan of Urban for some time now. just recently heard of Stjepan Hauser. since him and another cello player recorded 'smooth criminal' - great thing as well. gotta see if you haven't already.

it says it's a video from a Christmas concert in Zagreb. great ambient of Croatian national theater. still in his early twenties, Croatian cellist Stjepan Hauser has already performed in the biggest venues in Europe, as the soloist with many major orchestras in country and abroad. outstanding performances in most European countries, South Africa, New Zealand and the USA, with sensational debuts in Wigmore Hall, Royal Albert Hall, Amsterdam Concertgebouw and South Bank Centre bear witness of his incomparable artistry.

Damir Urban released his first solo album in 1996, entitled Otrovna kiša (Poison Rain), to critical and commercial acclaim. the album produced hits such as "Astronaut", but the highlight of his career was yet to follow.
in 1998, he released Žena dijete (Woman-Child) to even greater critical and commercial acclaim, and the album spawned a string of number ones: "Mala truba", "Odlučio sam da te volim" and "Black Tattoo" (which features the Split hip-hop group The Beat Fleet) all received extensive airplay. he refused to receive the Porin (Croatia's equivalent to a Grammy) for the album, as it was nominated for best alternative album and Urban believed his album to be a rock album, therefore, he considered he would be stealing a prize from real alternative artists.

so, that's about it for today. two amazing people you should definitely check out and listen to and judge for yourself if you like them or not.

feels good to listen to them every time. all over again.



this post was written as part of the ‘Seven Day Blogging Challenge’.

I am the one and only...

this is a photo from my friend's room... my artist buddy... amazing illustrator and painter I just love her work. this is a part of her room where we hang out from time to time and drink tea and discus ideas and life and people and our work...it's a perfect surrounding. like you're back in hippie days... great music playing. good tea. some cool incense sticks smell. calm area to sit down and chill. and relax and create. just your thoughts and you. in silence. (despite the music it's peaceful, music kinda fits the silence) dimmed light coming from one roof window... perfection.I love to spend my time there. and this photo perfectly captures my friend. ;)

I love the feeling that room has. it's like you've entered a new space in time. art all over. makes you feel creative at once. and I love to spend time with this friend of mine. I need more people like her doing something that's far more important than all this material world we live in...
at the end of the line that's all it matters. the time you spend creating. discovering. loving. making a difference.

this photo is a perfect glimpse of what life should be like. colorful. full. inspiring. imaginative. amazing. happy. mysterious. it reminds me of a line from the movie Poison Ivy. (don't ask why, my mind has some interesting synonyms)

'I know you. not your name. but your game. come to me or I'll come to you.'

it's been a busy day at work and all. but still can't get that song out of my head. and this image and the feeling of all the creativity around me. it's perfect.

'I am the one and only. Nobody I'd rather be. I am the one and only. You can't take that away from me' by Chesney Hawkes: The One And Only



this post was written as part of the ‘Seven Day Blogging Challenge’.