who's the person I keep writing about

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now this one is hard. answer one question I think people visiting my blog may have. tried to think what I would like to know... but than that's not the same.
so...I guess people would wonder who I am... but since I've already kinda answered that in my previous post...the second one that comes to my mind is this...


the person I keep writing about is my EX. smart. funny. interesting. SEO specialist. company owner. virgo. beautiful mind. sensitive. very sensitive. puts reason ahead of feelings lately. thinks the distances between us are unreachable. (4 hour drive with a car) intelligent. loves good food. used to love me. now he doesn't know I exist. used to talk to me for hours every single day. now can't find time or reason to write one word to me. used to mean the world to me. now I'm figuring out how not to think about him.(now that's not entirely true. I love to think about him despite everything) when it comes to me he thinks love is something you decide not to do anymore and you end it with ignorance. he loves to ignore me. but still I think he's all those things I used to love about him. sweet. amazing. loving. caring. has the most beautiful blue eyes in the world. he just doesn't know how to handle me. I guess I'm too much for him. I was good limited time offer. now I am some stranger trying to get in his way.

that's who I write about. that's who makes me write about my emotions. my feelings. my dreams. my horrors. my lies. my weakest moments. that's who makes my world shift from rainbow to dark. that's the guy. Mario. cute little thing. whose simple life has no place for me. we are so different. I believe in unconditional love. if I love you – I love you. if I don't – I don't. no middle way. no hidden facts. but that's my problem (?). when I learn to think like him I'll be fine. and labeled. and I will know how to STOP love.


this post was written as part of the ‘Seven Day Blogging Challenge’.